Welcome to Growing Up With Dysfunction! I am glad you are here!
My goal of this site, is to share my journey in recovery, and make sure others that are on the same path know that they are not alone. I felt alone in this struggle of family dysfunction for the longest time and I don’t want others to feel as if they are the only ones carrying this burden. We are in this together. ❤
I will be blogging anonymously because what I will be sharing here is personal. There’s a long list of emotions that come with this journey and I want to be completely honest along the way, blogging anonymously will help me to do that. Also, I don’t want to negatively impact my parents or my siblings, as I know they too are doing the best they can with the tools they have been given.
A little background information about myself, I’m a Christ follower, a wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend. I’m not a writer, but I am working on honing in on those skills. So, please bear with me. I just joined a writing group, and I am hoping that it will guide me and help me to better express my thoughts and feelings in this type of format. As for my family, alcoholism, codependency, abuse (emotional, physical, and psychological) and trauma run deep. The more I work on my recovery, I’m uncovering the dysfunctional traits I carry with me, and learning that it certainly didn’t start with me. It has been a generational curse that has been passed on time and time again. I am grateful everyday to have found the rooms of recovery. I pray that the traits I pass on to my boys aren’t as severe as the ones I inherited and the only way I can try to do that is to stay involved in the rooms of Alanon, Codependents Anonymous, and Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families (ACA).
Regular 12 step meetings are a part of my journey towards healing my heart, mind and soul. I started attending ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families) meetings in June of 2019. But, it wasn’t until May of 2020, when I switched to a different home meeting, that I became more active in the program. Then one day, a fellow traveler mentioned a Codependents Anonymous meeting. I thought, there is no way I’m codependent, but it just so happened to be a meeting right before my ACA meeting. So, I thought why not, the people-pleaser in me didn’t want to turn her down. I went to that meeting and come to find out, I am a codependent! So, one thing led to another and I added a Codependents Anonymous meeting to my weekly meeting list starting in June of 2020. That month I also started attending Al-Anon meetings, courtesy of Zoom and the pandemic, this wonderful online Alanon meeting seemed to fall into my lap. The goal for me is to find peace and serenity in my life and to surround myself with those that truly understand and accept me for being me. I have found it in these 12 step recovery groups. However, I’m still really green in recovery process. But, I have learned to view this as a journey, rather than a destination. One thing I am sure of is whether there is two months into the program or 30 years, we are all on this journey together.
I would love to connect with you and hear about your journey. Feel free to leave a comment, like a blog post or connect with me through social media. There won’t be any judgement here. I’m glad you are here and thank you for allowing me to share this journey with you!
Here’s to the journey of hurting, to healing, to helping each other!
**All opinions on this site are my own. I will NOT be speaking on behalf of any recovery program. However, individual programs may be referenced.